Belles-Lettres

Hindi kasing bilis ng bagyo, Hindi sumasabog tulad ng bulkan, Hindi kasing init ng sunog, Hindi rumaragasa sa agos ng baha, Hindi isang delubyo, Hindi! Pinapabagal ang araw, Pinapaiksi ang gabi, Pinapagpapahinga ang katawan, Ngunit, pinapagod ang damdamin. Ikinukong ang mga gunita. Papaliparin ang isip sa kawalan. Kay hirap tiyakin ang kasiguraduhan at kalayaan. Sa bawat delata Ay pangamba Na sa tulong na dumarating Ay kawalan ng pagkukuhanan Ng pangunahing kailangan. Hindi ka lalagnatin O uubuhin. Ngunit Pag-iisipin ka. Tatakamin. Pasasabikin. Dahil sa pandemyang Wala pang bakuna, Umasang Sa sakit ka lamang Palalayain. At tuluyang Pagpapahingahin.

Soon, my body goes back to work while my mind wanders home; my hand grabbing hers squeezing every moment to last; my sight recording every smile on her lil face; my ears remembering those chuckles to make them stay; my nose sniffing every bit of her smell; this taste so bittersweet I just don't want to leave but if I stay moments like these will be more far away so even if today makes my heart uneasy and my soul stray far from where I am at the moment just as the the clouds are to the sun. I know that more of these I will have very very soon.

I think this blog proves that when you are too happy or too sad, you do not have time to pause--to take a snapshot, or at least to write them down. You simply share them to those closest to your heart, hoping but not demanding that they would remember these as well as you do. At times, I feel I should have had a photograph to remind my failing memory but at times I also feel that the MOST MEMORABLE will remain, not just in photographs, but in my ever failing mind and heart. Those that Father time takes with him, I guess, I shouldn't remember...for a reason. So many times, being forgetful saved me. It saved me a lot of pain, a lot of grudges, a lot of not-so-important people. It feels good to forget. But you NEVER forget everything. And those that I do not forget make me think, make me move, make me live. Life has become simple as I matured. I love tne youth I had but I loved life better now that I no longer need to give a f*ck about everything around me. Only to those that matter...